we'll see!

so, I think this is my 4th attempt at blogging.... no, probably more. I've done Open Diary, Live Journal, Xanga and MySpace, as well as several "private" blogs within communities...

so. what's that about?

well, I've got many facets, for lack of a better term.. and a whole lot of opinions, and Lord knows I don't want everyone knowing EVERYTHING i think. but I do like to give my opinion, and sometimes it's good to just get it out there.

so here we go... jumping in on a first post and everything.

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Clay Aiken. Object my desire. pretty singer boy. humanitarian. essentially the template for my future husband.

He's started doing Christmas symphony concerts this week. Tonight was the second show, last night the first. He's got a few songs with trademark "glory notes" in them. Last night, apparently he didn't hit them, tonight he did. now, I didn't watch/listen to last night's. I did watch tonight. The encore song... it's a doozy.. that's for sure.

and I worry about him.

I worry because, it seems like he was really struggling on the song. You can hear his voice catch several times. he's over ennunciating. It looks like maybe even he's had some training (Finally) Something about what I saw tonight, and what i heard, had the singer in me concerned.

now. I ain't the best singer in the world, by any stretch of the imagination, but I've had several years of training and enough knowledge to make me dangerous to myself and others. I know what good singing should *look* like. And that sounds insane if you've never studied voice. But it's true. There are ways to position your mouth and tongue and head to get the best possible sound.

I never worried about his voice until now.

Hopefully it's just a product of the fact that he's not been out on the road for almost a year, not doing steady singing, and just hasn't really warmed up yet. I hope. I really wish he would get some training.. someone to help him use his voice to his full potential, and keep it for a long, long time.

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see.. a useless blog, but something I needed to get off my chest. Not worthy enough for MySpace, no one there needs to know the full extent of my obsession. I hate Xanga, no one's on live journal anymore, and the Clay Aiken Official Fan Club blog I've got... well.... If any of those lemmings got a hold of what I had to say, they'd take it wrong in a thousand different ways.

Some would say I'm not a fan, some would hold me up as a vocal goddess and ask my opinion of every performance. neither one is true of me, and I don't want the noteriety over there. I've learned the hard way, and over time, that being "popular" in a fandom isn't all it's cracked up to be. ANd frankly, only the cracked up ones want it.

Speaking of cracked up.

What's up with Ethel?

Is there something wrong with her? or does she just have bad hair? Just wondering.

I really wish Clay would stop pointing her out in shows and I wish she'd just shut the hell up! If she ever shows up at one of my shows, that I pay good money for, and starts yakkin' away... I might just beat her senseless.... I didn't pay good money to hear her and clay yammer on back and forth. My luck, she'd be right behind me yellin' at him the entire time. I'd be forced to rip my arm off just to have something to beat her with.

that wouldn't be pretty.