Well. I have a not very interesting job, and I work with not very interesting people. If given the choice, this would not be the job I would have, but seeing as how much people don't love their jobs, I'm sticking with it for now.

I need a "career" but that's another blog for another day.

I work with some girls who are quite cool, and I don't mind hanging out with them outside of work. But unfortunately, I'm one of the new people to the place, and they've already got their group of friends. The bad part, I don't like one of them as a person. I don't want to hang out with her. I've already turned down one night of videos and random fun because she was going to be there.

We worked together tonight, and at one point we were talking about stuff, about the new new girls and their lack of work ethic and whatever, and she said to me "We should hang out some time" and I immediately blurted out "NO!" -- which surprised me. I recovered quickly by saying something like, "i'm really not that interesting of a person, I just hang out by myself, it's fine" I don't know if she caught on or what.

My problem is I just don't like her enough as a person to want to spend my free time around her. She can be quite obnoxious. Very sarcastic (but not in a witty way) and just mean, sometimes. Very snobby as well. Usually these are things I can tolerate in people. Heck. They're usually things in me. But something about her I just cannot stand.

I don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe she's different outside of work. Maybe I just need to get to know her. I don't know. I think part of it is that I can't feel like I can be myself around her, be it the Clay thing, or being a Christian, neither of which I'm terribly outspoken about. But, i just don't like her. Another girl at work said to me yesterday, "Clay was on the radio this morning, I immediately thought of you when I heard him" and I laughed and told her, "yeah, I know, thanks! i heard the whole interview a few weeks back, it was much better not chopped to pieces" And she was fine with that, no snide remarks. I could have even handled a bit of good natured teasing, but she's just not like that. This other girl, the one I don't like, she called me a "fairy lover" and then didn't understand why 1- I found that offensive and 2- I didn't like people being called gay, especially if they've said, time and again, that their not, and now refuse to even discuss the topic. She called me "overly sensitive" and said that some of her closest friends are gay, and she teases them all the time.

I think she must just be ignorant, and I don't tolerate that very much.

hopefully I've gotten this off my chest enough that I can sleep now.