We're All Having a Moment.

I have one last chance to see him tomorrow night in Williamsport,
though my seats are terrible so he will not be able to see me, but at least I
know I finally had my moment with Clay.

WHAT? Who ever said you "get" to have a moment with Clay. Where is this written that we're guaranteed this "moment"? The Declaration of Independance does not say "we have these certain unalienable rights, life, liberty and a Moment With Clay Aiken" No. It does not.

This woman goes on my list just below Ethel. And that may seem harsh, but part of the reason is because of the fact that her "moment" came because she was obnoxious and harassing Clay, and then, to top it all of, she dropped a 4-letter word during his family friendly show. Not a big bomb... just perhaps a hand grenade of a word, but still. It was in the microphone, it was for the world to hear. To make matters worse, she's rubbing her hands on his legs and over his back. For a guy with a serious nut allergy this is a problem. Had he rubbed his hands over his leg in the same place she did, and she had nut oils on her hands, he could be in trouble, no lie.

Claymates™ like her piss me off.

This one happened the exact same night.

I wanted to be relaxed, sane, calm, collected. I did not want to worry or scare Clay. I did not want to make him nervous. I did not want to weird him out. I had thought of this day. You know we all have. I have thought, what would I want to say to him if I ever got to meet him? I had it all planned out. Well you know what they say about the best laid plans... lets just say all those things came out but not the way I planned. What I wanted was to connect with Clay the person, not the popstar. I wanted to show him care and respect. I wanted him to be at ease as possible with me. Now I know Clay has got to be on guard, he doesn't know me, doesn't know that what he tells me that I won't take it and tell it everywhere or worse yet distort it and tell that everywhere so he has to be on guard. Anyway I at least said Hi Clay. At least. The next thing that came out of my mouth was "Clay I can't touch you". He gave me a puzzled look I think, it could have been fear too, or confusion. Then, I quickly told him about the chocolate candy with nuts I had eaten earlier. I could not think of what to do, my brain was not logical at this point. Also my thoughts and attention were directed to Clay I did not see the sink that was next to me...Dear Clay thanked me for telling him that, and asked me if I would like to wash my hands. I think I said yes. Then he went over to the sink, turned the water on, showed me the soap and pulled the paper towel out a little bit. He has such a servant heart. So gentle, so patient, so polite. As I was washing my hands I decided to start talking.

This woman, she was lucky enough to answer a trivia question, and get on Clay's bus. The first words out of her mouth showed that she only had his best interests at heart, and not her selfish ones. This is the dicotomy that is the Clay Aiken fandom. It might have been a bit extreme on her part, who knows. But at least she was thinking of someone other than herself.

She says that Clay has a servant's heart, and that's true, and what's better, he brings that out in other people. Many of us have become better people for the things he's inspired us to do. Unfortunately, not everyone has had such a change. Not everyone thinks of others before themselves.

Sure, I could be very easily putting woman #1 into a box, heck, I could be doing the same with #2. But someone very wise said that you "never have a second chance to make a first impression" Seems like that's the truth here, doesn't it?

I know I'm not without my faults. I know I can be an insanely selfish person, but that doesn't mean I'm not a work in progress. That doesn't mean that i don't know what I *should* be doing.

People baffle the heck outta me.