2 AM ramblings

so i don't really know what i'm doing anymore.

i'm at this job, where they've hired a junkload of people now and it seems that i can only get about 10 hours a week to work. that's not a job, that's a hobby! I don't know where else to go to find someplace to work. i'm new in town, i don't know what i want to do... i'm at a loss. I think maybe i'll call that temp agency that my roommate's sister used to work for. i guess i can do that and still stay at the mall. I like the mall, it's easy, most of the time, and most of the people are fun. besides, i've gotta stay there if i'm gonna shop, which i am.. paying full price and/or waiting on sales SUCKS.

i'm hopelessly addicted to Disney World. I now have to be one of those people who has to plan a trip.. airfare, hotels, tickets, everything. and that just.plain.sucks! Gone are my days of going over for the afternoon to hang out because I had a bad day. or meeting friends in the park for dinner or running away for the night to a sweet hotel. No. now I have to plan around my schedule and value or peak seasons, and it's just sapping the fun out of it.

but I can't not go. I just can't. It makes me so depressed just thinking about not being able to go. I want to be able to go for more than like 3 days. but I don't think I can get off the work for it. Besides, I can't hardly afford it. I hate the value resorts, and unless I get there in the next month, or wait until the summer, it's gonna be at least 75 bucks a night. at that rate, i can't stay more than about 3 nights. and that, right there, that just doesn't cut it. I want a nice hotel, and I want a lot of days. There aren't too many people who can even understand that. I need at least 4 full days in the parks. I don't want to park hop just to make it to each park.. 2 days is definitely not enough, 3 is just barely, and 4 makes sure i can get a full day in each park, if I so chose. I know I won't, want a full day in each park.. but I don't want to be rushed at all. It's not like I have to go on every single attraction while I"m there... but I need major time for shopping and browsing, and time for eating.. cause there are still places i haven't been yet.. and I'm just too random to ever try to stick to a plan. And Everest. I need that like, 4 times.. that could be half a day, depending on the time of year... and Kilamanjaro Safari too.. need a few times of that.. early morning, and just prior to close, for sure.. And if i'm with someone who doesn't understand my pace, or wants to do things b/c they've never been there... I have to oblige..

crap, who am I trying to convince? I don't make more than 70 dollars a week now.. that won't ever pay for a trip. I hate Starbucks and Barnes and Noble and Borders.. I want a Books a Million near me.. I want to work there. Maybe I should try Publix for a while. They generally don't suck much, and I could buy stock if I wanted to eventually. Hmm.. wonder about the Disney Store and it's relationship with the parks these days. Used to be you could get cast priveledges, but since it's sold out, I don't think so.

*researching....*

Nope. Disney Stores have been sold to The Children's Place and it's now a worse place to work than for Charming Shoppes.

*sigh*

I'll never figure my life out.


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-QN